POWER (It’s God given)

“seen the rovers roll up with ribbons, I seen them re-poid re-sold then re-driven” Jay Z

“When power, power gets into your head, I can tell you, you will never remember that one day there is a bigger power almighty that will deal with you” (James Orengo) And that’s how most of us conduct ourselves when we get into authority. We forget the enabling force that put us into the position. And when we fall, we are full of regrets.

There’s been an ongoing discussion about the conduct of presenters from Homeboyz radio (breakfast show) and the remarks that they made a week ago. I happened to have a listen to the clip and was utterly disgusted by what they said. With such a huge platform, there are better and sane things to talk about rather than insulting and insinuating false beliefs into the minds of listener’s.

But that hasn’t been the first time presenter X (pseudo name we will give him) has behaved in such a way. Many at times he has had to either been reprimanded or pulled off air and instead of learning from the mistakes, continues to carry on with his behaviors. And that’s what James Orengo says; “when power, power gets into your head, you can never remember there is a bigger power…”

On the other hand, it should serve as a lesson to all of us. When God grants you the opportunity of influence, use the opportunity well. Educate, uplift, motivate and try to bring out a better society than you found.

Currently I’m reading A Promised Land by Barrack Obama and in an excerpt where he discusses bill passing, he says; ‘I think back to my community service days. I think of the steel – plant workers, there families and I remember the reason why I ran for office. I must make sure I deliver on the promise’. I wish those in office would emulate such kind of a person.

While we may be hard headed and think that power will last forever, God will remind you that he is the giver and taker of the same power. Presenter X has been moving with the notion of “bad boy” & that he can’t be brought down but shock on him.

As Lucky dube sings; “be good to the people on your way up the ladder you will meet them on your way down”. Away from him. Look at our politicians and so called celebrities. Those who walked proudly like pekoks are now nowhere to be seen or are fighting cases in court.

So I urge you my dear reader. Be humble, allow God to exalt you and when he does, serve him with all your strength.

IN THEM AND YOU IN ME

That the world may know you have sent me

One of the strengths that introversion has brought me is intuition. Whenever I go somewhere I get to notice the little bitty details that bypass people. Or I’m able to remember things and what people told me years ago. (well that hasn’t always been nice)

Still I like it. Apart from my queerness of reading four books a month and 2hrs of workout in the morning,there’s something positive in my introversion.
That’s what has happened for the past two weeks. I’ve noticed a pattern of similar messages shared by different people that I’ve interacted with in the last 14 days. What has stood out is as if God is trying to tell me something. That despite my brokenness, he still has a greater purpose for me.

It started when I visited a tattoo parlor while redoing a tattoo I’ve had. I was in the company of a female friend and the tattooist asked her if she is saved and if she doesn’t mind he plays gospel music. I was intrigued. And he started asking me when were you last in church? And we chatted and chatted and even others who were getting tattoos contributed. It became more of a community sharing session. He shared how God picked him from the mess he was in and transformed him. I also shared what I’ve been through and where God has placed me and what I’m doing to be better while helping others.

Before leaving, we prayed and I remember his last words: “Don’t mind how rugged your past looks like. Infront lies better opportunities and God can’t put us through things he can’t get us through” We headed for home with my friend and the next day early at cockcrow we were in church. Afterwards we went back home, prepared breakfast, some snacks for a friend’s birthday she was going to and while I was leaving, she insisted I accompany her to the birthday. I did and while we were there, there father(catholic priest) came and shared the celebration with them. He got to talk to me abit as well as her friends trying to get to know me.

The sister of the birthday girl was quite keen on knowing me and how my spiritual life is. That evening they were going for bible study and insisted I come. I couldn’t make(considering I was going back to my place) but insisted I should be a frequent visitor and accompany them whenever they go for meditation prayers.

Three days later while leaving school I bump into my film lecturer. He quizzed me on where I live and how I find school life. I shared and the challenges I face. He told me: “don’t indulge in things you’ll later come to regret. You’re here for a short while. Use the opportunity you have well”.

Then on Sunday which has become my tradition; (not missing a TD. Jakes sermon) he was taking about shame, brokenness and knowing that you can do it. He shared in analogy to the greatest people in the bible, they had their weaknesses yet God choose them. Then in the evening churchill show big ted was talking about why he writes and that he wanted to use that as an opportunity to grow the quality of his life.

And that’s the message of my blog this morning. God will use the simple but disregarded things to teach us lessons. You might be waiting for an angel from heaven to touch down on earth (which might happen) but at times it’s the simple things we see in life that God uses to communicate to us.

God might use your mother, your father,your teacher, your friend or even a preacher on TV to tell you something. So next time when such happens to you, be willing to accept it with an open heart 💜💜

ATTITUDE EQUALS ALTITUDE

You look so much better when you smile

“I smile
Even though I’m hurt, see, I smile
I know God is working so I smile
Even though I’ve been here for a while
I smile
Smile
It’s so hard to look up when you’ve been down
Sure would hate to see you give up now
You look so much better when you smile” (Smile chorus) A favorite song of mine. If I had a top- ten list, it would comfortably seat among the first five alongside slave mill and never let you down. Not because of its popularity or because we share a jones history with the singer(Kirk franklin) but of the words dispatched by the singers.


The song basically has a story line of hurt and depression and urges people to forge forward in that God will be there for you 🙏. Which brings me to the message of today’s blog. Our attitude. From the merriam webster definition, it is; “a mental position with regards to a fact or state”(noun) With that, we can now see it all starts from our cognitive. Dripping down to our entire being. And if we fill it with antagonism, it will pull us down.


The human nature requires an equilibrium between good and bad, right and wrong but if we lean too much on one side, we might end up falling down like the seesaw game we played as kids. When a heavier opponent sat against you, he would lift you up the sky and leave you to fall. Similar to how our attitude operates. Yes we might be undergoing a harsh moment, but if we lean too much on what is happening, we miss the chance of picking ourselves up.


Just this week on Spotify I discovered a new podcast titled Happy place by Fearne Cotton. And the latest episode she was doing was with Rhonda Bryne the famous author of The Secret. A book that delves into knowing oneself and bettering of thyself. I enjoyed the 48 minutes episode. And Bryne said if you hold onto anger and hurt, it grows into you limiting your possibilities. She further said that you should let in the emotion, process it and let it out. ‘Everyday may not be a sunny happy day but despite the gloominess that comes, we shouldn’t let it take a hold of us’

An advice I would recommend. And as I finish, I urge you to always carry the positive luggage, leave behind the burden and imagine of endless possibilities ahead. We might not always have brighter days but we can create the sunshine we desire. It all starts in our minds. ☀️

INNER PEACE

One of the preeminent teachings you get from therapy is that you can’t help others if you haven’t helped yourself. You might wonder; “will that be possible?” Yes it can. Just that our society hasn’t allowed the notion to thrive.

The next question you might ask, is how that will be done. And won’t you seem a vexatious person? No you won’t. Actually I’ve come to learn that it’s better to first help yourself before helping others.

And this has been through experiences. Many people usually find me an easy going person and whenever they need a helping hand, I’m always available. But as I avail myself to others, I’ve also seen it has had a detrimental effect. I might avail to offer a helping hand while on my end my shoulder is hurting. And then I’m left in pain.

That’s why after experiences I’ve decided to put me first before others. I feed myself before offering a plate. Not an easy thing to do considering people viewing you as selfish. As it is human for you to expect help when in pain.

But also it’s more humane to have the strength required to help others. You can’t lift a friend from a ditch while you’re falling in the same ditch. So my dear reader, I want to challenge you this year to start with you before thinking of others. Not a mean thing to do but a healthy habit to cultivate.

EVOLUTION NOT RESOLUTION

Evolution not resolution (G money)

In September 2016 on a fine Saturday evening I was briskly walking home and I happen to come across a multitude of people gathered and singing in joyous celebration. It was on the pathway between holy family basilica and city hallway. I was intrigued and decided to go and see what is going on. I was ushered in with warm hands and given a pamphlet that read; “happy new year”. I thought to myself; “this seems quite interesting”.

And that is how I found myself in a new years celebration in September. I enjoyed the fete not only the singing and dancing but also what I learnt. After we sang and danced ourselves out, the preacher took to the podium and shared words that have stuck with me ever since. “We are celebrating the new year not as others do but as we do. Let this be a new beginning but also the continuation of the previous. As you plan and write resolutions remember they will only come to pass if you are willing to work. Not forgetting the destiny that God has placed in you”

He continued sharing and urging people to think of where they want their lives to be and what they need to do in order reach there. Rather than just coming up with yearly based resolutions. And that is what has prompted my article. Resolutions and the new year. You might be surprised by the tittle but please don’t be. I heard of it from media personality G money(Cornad Garry)on his podcast; (the mics are open). He was asked by fellow podcaster Andrew what are his resolutions for 2021 and he said he doesn’t write resolutions, rather he reflects on his life to see if there is an improvement towards where he wants to be.

A point worth jotting down. Many of us usually begin a year with a list of things onto which we project and say we will do but rarely accomplish. Why you may ask? it’s simple. If you don’t have an elevated mindset and drive, rarely do you see things through. You may want to go to the gym and look well but what is your overall notion towards fitness? do you enjoy working out? are you willing to forfeit eating unhealthy to a more greener and cleaner diet?. Or take another example savings. What is your relationship with money. How do you look at money? is it something you fear addressing?. If most of the above questions keep your mind buzzing, it’s high time you elevate.

Elevate in the way you see things, the way you do them, the way you handle them and that is how you’ll accomplish all you want. Another point worth jotting is having a vision board. A vision board will help you know where you want your life to be and it will guide you on the steps to take. For example I want to be a best selling author and a show host(just like Oprah Winfrey).

On my vision board I have written that down and broken the steps to get there. I have started with my blog and I’m also doing youtube videos. When each year ends and I begin the next, I usually try to see if I’m closer to my dreams and what do I need to improve to get there. Not just a list of 10 things to do for 2021.

But don’t get me wrong. I’m not dismissing resolutions, rather I’m guiding you on how to make them work. So when each year begins, try to see if you are elevating or downgrading.

STAY HOPEFUL

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen” (Hebrews 11:1)

“This is going to be my year. The beginning of a new decade.” Most of us (myself) included hollered that at the beginning of 2020 with lots of enthusiasm not knowing things would take a turn. We didn’t know the year would be as it is.
A pandemic swept through the air leading to confusion  and distress. Job loss, demise of loved ones, businesses crumbling and to make matters worse, there is no near end to the pandemic. With such, lies no hope for a brighter day.
But it shouldn’t be. Yes there is an affliction but that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t be upbeat. It actually might be preparing us for the better in store. Just as depicted in Things Fall Apart by (Chinua Achebe): “The year that Okononkwo took eight hundred seed-yams from Nwakibe was the worst year in living memory. Nothing happened at it’s proper time …. But the year had gone mad. Rain fell as if it had never fallen before”. If you read further you will see that people laughed at Okonkwo when he was planting and others lazied around. When the rains came, it caught them in surprise as Okonkwo’s barn was full to the brim.
So I urge you my dear reader. Despite the year being full of ups and downs, loosing of loved ones, businesses going down; stay auspicious. Look at the heavens with a bright heart and let the most high know that you are prepared for the coming year. Pray to him with a hopeful heart. And actually you will find he will bless you in the midst of the storm. So take charge and declare that 2021 is your year.

DOING RIGHT : (Never easy)

Always do the right (Mugambi)

“There is a right and there’s a wrong,
face the two and be a man,
play your part in the father’s plan of creation”
*Luciano (Jah Is Much Stronger)

Such kind of songs made me fall in love with reggae music. And up to now I still listen to the music. I like it because it passes a message and consummates the masses. But that’s for another day. For today I want to talk about doing right. As the song has said, there is a wrong and a right but do we really know the difference ? I bet yes it’s just that we’ve decided as a society to norm some shaft and allow them to happen.

Begining from the traditional settings, people were taught what is acceptable and what is not. And when one did a wrong, there were consequences that followed. Then where did we go wrong? According to me, all went sideways when those who did wrong got more glory than those who did right. This then made people see that; “okay, if I do this even though it’s wrong, I still will benefit and be like person X or person Y”

Drug dealers got more fame than pastors. Gang leaders became more attractive to the youth than doctors. Rouge politicians became more successful than teachers. With this, it brought about a shift in thinking. Children started dropping out of school to start selling drugs, more and more people started revering political tricks as opposed to properly campaigning. And before we knew it, our societal morals were on a downhill spiral.

And the media and entertainment business picked up this notion. More movies started being filmed with either drug dealer characters or gangs and they stated making money off this. From The Godfather up to Gangs of London, the society has been infiltrated with this thinking that it’s okay to do wrong, you will make it. That’s why it took a director like Tyler perry a longer time to reach the top because he didn’t reflect this norm.

But should we seat down and watch as the society crumbles on its morals ? no. It’s tough doing the right thing in a place where wrong has been made “okay” but that doesn’t discard a wave of change. It took men like Mandela 27 years in prison to realise a change in racial inequality so don’t expect the journey to be a walk in the park.

In whatever space you might be in, try make a difference. As a politician inspire people by showing them that your manifesto and how you campaign gets you elected. Not through vote riging and hate speech. As a director, create movies that will change the society and not corrupt morals. As a writer, inspire people with your words and most importantly as a parent reflect an image that you would want your children to be like.

5 Loaves and 2 Fish Analogy

John 6 : 8 – 13

“Another of his disciples, Andrew, Simon Peter’s brother, spoke up, “Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?”  Jesus said, “Have the people sit down.” There was plenty of grass in that place, and they sat down (about five thousand men were there). Jesus then took the loaves, gave thanks, and distributed to those who were seated as much as they wanted. He did the same with the fish. When they had all had enough to eat, he said to his disciples, “Gather the pieces that are left over. Let nothing be wasted.”  So they gathered them and filled twelve baskets with the pieces of the five barley loaves left over by those who had eaten.”John 6:8‭-‬13 NIV

One of the most famous parables taught by Jesus. I remember as a child having to hear it taught each time we had bible study week (DVBS).

But do most of us know the intended meaning it is supposed to pass?

I don’t think so. It’s just recently that I had a deep study of the verse that I came to grasp the meaning.

It’s taking about our gifts and environments. What we have at hand.

Are we willing to use them to transform our lives? or are we going to be like Andrew the disciple and say “here is a boy with five barely small loaves and two fish?”

Growing up, I grew up in an estate called Santack along Ngong road on your way to Karen and opposite Nairobi showground. I happened to have a neighbor called Joe.

Joe became a good neighbor to the point people started thinking he is my uncle. Nowadays I’m so used to introducing him as “Uncle Joe”.

For the twenty plus something years I’ve been on this earth, I’ve known Joe doing glass – art or as popularly known “engraving”.

He doesn’t have the masters and PhD’s that most people do but his skill has made him travel the globe and meet very influential people.

Just recently our deputy president (William Ruto) bought his engraving and gifted him machines to expand his work.

When he was starting, most people thought he wouldn’t amount into anything. They so much discouraged him from following his dreams that he felt like giving up.

My mom and dad saw the potential he had and encouraged him to continue pushing for I believe they saw where he was destined to go. They taught him some few professional etiquettes for they were both in the working environment.

Even when he had his accident my mom as a nurse helped him in the recouping process. He has been pushing with his art up to today and he is the classical analogy of the five loaves and two fish. He used what he had at hand to transform his life.

Recently nation newspaper did a feature on him and he said it’s his art that transformed his life from a cow ranch life in Nanyuki to where he is today.

And that is what I’m trying to address in my story this month. Whatever you have at hand, use it to your advantage and you shall be amazed.

Don’t just whine about how you don’t have thing x and y, rather use the little you have to change your situation. As they say, “necessity is the mother of invention”

STONE CITY (Shamba La Mawe)

Hustle Harder, Hustle Smarter (50 cent)

Yes. That’s the byname we Kenyans have given to our beautiful capital city. Not because it’s a city filled with stones, rather it’s because of the hardened nature of it.

As stones are hard and don’t break easily so does our city. Those who have lived in it can vindicate the statement. Nairobi is an ever bustling city with people on the move. You might be surprised as a visitor to find no one idling around as we say in our local dialect of sheng “magithaa ni maganji” (time is money). As you get to stay in the cosmopolis, you start being accustomed to the nature and know the whereabouts of each corner and who is who.

You will also be welcomed with things missing, being duped, buying jive products getting lost and so on. You will also know when to wake up and catch the train, what routes do busses take, where are the markets and how to save money. I got this first-hand experience when I got my identity card and started being a loner. I thought being born in the city gave me a free pass to the experiences but until I got corned that’s when I knew “son, welcome to the stone city”.

And that’s how life is. Sometimes we have to undergo certain experiences in order for us to know importance of certain things. I’m not suggesting that we depricate advice that we are given, rather I’m suggesting that something’s we have to experience to know their importance. You will never know how valuable money is until you have it and loose it. You will never know how important being warm-hearted is until one day you hurt those you love the most.

I recently had taken a break from school and decided to tackle life’s bull by its horns. I thought life is just a matter of starting ideas and pop “triumph” arrives. Shock on me. That’s when I realized life is but a journey and school gives you that sponge to fall back on and perfect yourself before entering the world. Without such an endurance, I would have never known how important education is.

That is the kind of experience I’m taking about. One needs such kind of lessons in order to know the value of certain things in life and also what not to do. Yes, listen to the advice of others especially those with much more experience than you but also be prepared to learn from life.

Make that bad investment so that you know how to invest better. Lose that first love and learn from the experience so that you know how to love. Even the bible gives a story of the prodigal son.

He was upfront with his father and demanded his share of his birthright as he said “I’m ready to be me”. Shock on him. Within no time he had squandered all his birthright and he became a pooper living with pigs. At that point that is when he realized the mistake he had done. He got up and decided to change and never repeat the same mistake again.

Without such an experience he would have never known the importance of patience and planning. As the narration goes on, we see he goes back to his father to ask for forgiveness. Because he learnt from his stumble. That’s how life should be.

We need such kind of experiences to teach us lessons that will long be engraved at the core of our beings. Appreciate them and don’t be afraid to learn. As the title states “Stone City”, that is also how life is. Not an easy journey but a learning process.

ANGER DRAINS

Recently I was involved in an argument with a friend of mine. And while we were arguing, I realised we spent a lot of energy bickering, energy that could have been used to do constructive things in our lives.

And that’s what anger does. It drains you of your energy and it also consumes time. Two things when mishandled cause knots in someone’s life.

But also get me correct.  I’m not dismissing anger. All I’m saying is that there is a positive way of releasing the brise. Don’t spend all your energy trying to put out a large fire using a bucket. Get the hosepipe and put it out. Most of us usually use the bucket hoping the fire won’t spread while the fire itself is laughing at our efforts. “I wish he/she knew they can’t put me out”.

Anger is part of the humanistic nature just as happiness is. The only difference is how we express it. Most of us (me included) when we get angry the first thing we do is to throw tantrums and yell at the other person. We think he/she is the cause of our anger. Yes they might be but we need to sit back and analyze. “Will it solve anything by throwing tantrums ? Will it solve anything by shouting at the other person ?” at most no. Then we should find another way to express our anger.

I was once watching keeping up with the Kardashians and I saw kourtney was told by a therapist whenever she is angry at someone, she should pick up her phone write what she wanted to tell the other person and after ten minutes if she still wants to tell the person that then she should go ahead. From that episode that philosophy stuck with me. I also was listening to TD. Jake’s sermon last year when he was talking about anger and life. He said anger is not a bad emotion just that we don’t know how to control and express it.

He suggested showing someone you are angry for it will provide boundary setting as they will now know what upsets you. He also said before you attack someone,  ask yourself how you would feel if it was the opposite happening to you. Something I suggests we all try. As from my above article, I have tried to address anger and also give out pointers to help you my dear reader. Next time when angry, try using the kourtney philosophy.